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Well to start off I haven't wrote on my blog for over a year now sad I know but I decided to today and I'm trying to think of what to say so i'm just going to say whats on my mind now I know it won't make much sense to most people but it will to me
Dear Blog,
Maybe I did it because it was nice to have someone telling me how gorgeous I was and how much I meant to them but in all reality I knew exactly how they felt I knew they didn't mean what they said but like I said it was nice to here I don't get much attention in high school I guess with boys I guess cause I don't like assosciatin with guys there well because there rude..... I know I wasn't suppose to do it but to me it was what I wanted I wanted to hear those words that every girl likes to hear those sweetnothing texts that puts a little smile on your face to make something seem all better and at the time life seemed so okay just being there having someone to talk to other than your best friend to tell them how your feeling when your down don't get me wrong talking to your family and best friend is okay but sometimes...just sometimes its nice to be with someone who doesnt want to know every bit and piece of your life someone who will just sit and listen and tell you how pretty you are and who you can be completly blunt with and he'll understand even when you know sitting there talking with him is wrong and how I wish everything could have came to a calm ending instead of going out with a big bang.......I just want someone there....When I say I dont want marriage...at least not for a long time i'm telling the truth..When I say I told him I would never do that I was telling the truth.....When I say its nice to talk to someone that listens it is.......When I say I wouldn't take a moment of that back its the truth When I say we didn't do anything its the God honest truth....I knew none of it was meant to be cause I didn't want it to be....but in that moment it was just nice to have someone different......